BEWARE OF PHISHING MAILS!

First of, let's find out what the word "PHISHING" means.

Phishing is attempting to acquire information (and sometimes, indirectly, money) such as usernames, passwords, and credit card details by masquerading as a trustworthy entity in an electronic communication. Communications purporting to be from popular social web sites, auction sites, online payment processors or IT administrators are commonly used to lure the unsuspecting public. Phishing is typically carried out by e-mail spoofing or instant messaging,

[1] and it often directs users to enter details at a fake website whose look and feel are almost identical to the legitimate one. Phishing is an example of social engineering techniques used to deceive users,

[2] and exploits the poor usability of current web security technologies.

[3] Attempts to deal with the growing number of reported phishing incidents include legislation, user training, public awareness, and technical security measures. - source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Phishing

Below are some of the phishing mails I received:

This mail's email address is obviously fake. "help" was misspelled.

Liberty RESERUE?

This one's email address is a bit odd.

$250? Really?

Hackers are everywhere and we can't control the kinds of emails that we are receiving so it's our responsibility to be cautious at all times. If you need to access JBP, go to the main site and log in. If you need to access your payment processor, go to  the main site and log in. REMEMBER:  DO NOT CLICK the links included in the email.  

Mothers Who Murdered Their Children

I was browsing some videos  in YouTube and I came across with this very disturbing video clip. This compilation made the Malaysian mom (who was seen beating her crying 8- month old daughter/son) a good mom because her child is still alive. But who knows? Who knows what could have happened if the mother wasn't sent to jail, right? 

As a mother, I also somehow understand how frustrating it is to raise a child. It's exhausting and overwhelming at times but hey, there are other ways to handle stress and frustration. For me, the most frustrating part is that you can't and you MUST NOT let all the stress out to your little one. Grab a coffee, count one to ten, smoke, get some fresh air but NEVER ever lift a hand to beat your baby because that would not make him/her stop crying; you're only adding salt into the wound.

The video states the possible reasons why some mothers hurt their own flesh and blood; depression, retaliation, stress, desperation, and some are just mentally ill. I admit, I'm one of the "stressed-out" ones but my gawd, I couldn't imagine the thought of taking my own child's life (regardless of the reason). I should have kept my legs closed if I didn't want the baby in the first place, right?

Taking a break and having a "ME TIME" is really a big help especially for full-time moms like me. It extends the thread of my patience and recharges the battery of my strength. Also, spending time with friends every once in a while makes you miss your baby, doesn't it? After watching this video, I took a glance at my sleeping baby and I realized one thing... I'm one helluva good mother and I'm the perfect mom for my baby Mische.

Patience and Effort Definitely Pay Off In JBP World

I tried working for Odesk as a web researcher, typing Captchas, creating and answering questions in Socipoll, completing surveys and clicking advertisements to earn online but all of them have a common denominator. They're too time-consuming. Aside from the long hours that you need to spend in front of your computer just to type, click and view, you're kind of pressured to refer especially if you want to earn quickly. And to be totally honest, the main reason why I joined JustBeenPaid is the fact that I can still earn even without referrals. In my mind, "why would I need 10% commission if I can earn through my own triplers?"

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My first few weeks as a newbie psyched me. I am earning everyday and my earnings grow on a daily basis. I was observing the posts in Facebook and was shocked to see that a member can earn like more than a hundred dollars through commissions alone. Also, I thought of my own sponsor; he's earning $1 for every position that I purchase. I suddenly remembered the first time I added funds and bought my first set of triplers; He earned and he's continuously earning through me. That's the time that I realized that I can be an upline too; that I can earn through commissions too; that I can also earn through other people.

I started sharing JustBeenPaid to others through this blog, forum and FB chat exactly 2 months ago. As expected, it was hard to convince everyone to join the program because they have to shed some cash before earning. Questions that didn't seem to end started pouring in and since I'm introducing the program, I had to practice my old profession when I started my career in BPO industry. I was a Customer Service Representative once again and being an upline made me realize a few things:

• Just like in SALES, you need to know what you are selling to be credible enough. You need to know the ins and outs of the product before convincing others to try it out. Most importantly, you must believe in the product you are selling. In JBP, an upline must be ready to answer all the possible questions that a prospect could have. How would you convince others to sign up if you yourself do not know what the program is all about?

• DISCUSS THE BENEFITS INSTEAD OF FEATURES. One of the features of JBP is the $10 loan (pay-it-forward). Now what? As an upline, you need to make the prospect understand as to what the feature does. Ex. In JBP, Pay-it-forward allows the member to observe and know the program for 45 days without spending a single cent. $10 is the feature, risk-free trial is the benefit. 

• Know how to IDENTIFY BUYING SIGNALS.  If your potential buyer is obviously not interested, move on to the next customer. You would know if the person you are talking to is interested by his/her way of questioning. Ex. If your prospect is asking about payment processors, it is more likely that he/she is interested.

• Like in CUSTOMER SERVICE and TECHNICAL SUPPORT, you need to have patience and willingness to assist or walk the member through the system/site. And if there are questions/situation that you cannot handle, you have the liberty to use your resources and research or escalate (go to the web conference or ask the JBP gurus in FB group)

• You need to have GOOD REASONING SKILLS. Effectively handling objections  like "I dont see the need to upgrade" or "I'm just gonna use the PIF feature and wait for it to each $10 so I can compound". is one of the top drivers why some JBP members have a huge number of referrals. Ex. Make your prospect understand how buying triplers using his/her money would benefit him/her. Explain that a cycled matrix will earn him/her $60 that's why he/she needs to upgrade. This bullet point, I believe is self explanatory. 

"Much effort, much prosperity"

Very true! I earned almost $150 in just 2 days through referral commissions alone.  Many thanks to my referrals. 

JUSTBEENPAID PAYMENT PROOF$

Even I wasn't that convinced that I'd be able to make a living through JustBeenPaid. I literally spent almost three days researching for site reviews; hoping that I'd find a negative feedback that would change my mind but I was not able to find one. And my note to myself was: " Either this program is really working out for everyone or I was not researching enough." After a few more hours of reading others' testimonials, I registered and tried the program out using JBP's Pay-IT-Forward ($10 loan). 

After Reading the FAQ's, observing the posts in JBP groups in Facebook and with my sponsor's assistance, I gradually understood the ins and out of the program. I decided to take the risk, shed some of my spare money and start with $150, which gives me $3.20 daily. I decided to buy more triplers because if you are serious to pursue the program, purchasing/repurchasing triplers can be so addicting especially if you want to earn quickly. I am now earning $52 everyday and counting; the risk was definitely worth it. 

 To those who are still in doubt, here's a compilation of payment proofs from JBP members all over the world. Enjoy!

“Man cannot discover new oceans unless he has the courage to lose sight of the shore.” 

-Andre Gide

Join us and make money work for you. 

PS.

To those who want to put the video in their blogs, here's the link in youtube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mjnv7_bJebk

Seriously, Get Over It!

Of course, It would have been great if she won, but she did not so let's deal with it. For the past hours, I've been seeing a lot of negative remarks in Twitter and Facebook regarding the result. Seriously? Why can't we just respect the result? It's called American Idol anyway so it should no longer be a surprise if America voted for Philip Phillips. 

A few points:

• PP was never in the bottom two, which made it quite obvious that he has a huge fanbase that has supported him since day 1. 
• They both have the talent; but they do have different music genres. They're both deserving to win. Do you think that the judges would save Jessica when she got the lowest number of votes if they didn't see her potential? In my honest opinion, if there was no voting involved in determining who is who, Jessica would definitely have the title. But the truth of the matter is, it's still the votes that matter and PP has a bigger number of votes compared to out bet.
• Jessica may have not won, but it is certain that she's got a big future ahead of her. It was indeed a good, memorable and close fight. Jessica, making it in the final 2 should make us all proud. No more bitterness please. She doesn't even need the title to make it big in Hollywood in the first place. 

I was also disappointed when I heard Ryan announce the winner. But what can I do? I couldn't change the result. I'm happy and proud of our very own for making it in the finals. She was even named "World Idol", right? After all, it's the runners up who have a better career than those who bagged the title and this is just the beginning of the real competition. Welcome Jessica to stardom! 

Confessions of An Ex-Mistress

Yes, you got the title right. I was once a mistress and believe me or not, I didn't regret being one. I was not an ordinary low-class mistress who asked for money, ruined a family, or engaged to sex. So, If you're wondering what kind of mistress I was, I guess I was one of the ones who just fell in love.

Image courtesy of dearoldheart.blogspot.com

Don't get me wrong, I am not proud to be a mistress. Not at all. It's true that I didn't regret it because I learned a lot from that experience. I have come to realize a lot of things. I learned who will be the ones who wouldn't judge and stick with me till the end of my battle.

Many says that those who can bear to be in a forbidden relationship are either desperate, insecure, gold digger OR, some are just plain home-wreckers. I admit I was guilty of one thing or two. I was kind of desperate that time; I was under the impression that no one's gonna love me again. I believe that's one common sentence you're gonna hear from a person who went through a traumatic break up. My self esteem was as low as you you could imagine.. I was so vulnerable.. I felt unwanted by many, I felt unimportant until he came..

He's a former office mate; he was not that approachable, kind of "suplado" and he initially caught my attention because he's really good looking. He was my team mate and I heard he's already married. And since I was new to the team, I had an excuse not to talk to him. I didn't even intend to have him included on my friends list. It's not that I'm trying to be "suplada"; it's just that I don't want to be friends with a person whom I am attracted with. Considering that he's married, the least thing I would want is to make a move. I just simply didn't want anything that has something to do with him.

After a few months, I was receiving anonymous emails from this person who wants to be friends with me. I didn't have an idea that it was actually him. Mixed emotions. I was flattered and worried at the same time.  But hey, he just wants to be friends, so what's the big deal? It's not like he's not friends with anybody. Your guess is as good as mine. We became good friends, which eventually led to a relationship.

We were so good in keeping our "little secret" to everyone. Even my bestfriend who I was with everyday didn't know that there's something going on between me and the guy. (I guess I have to start addressing him by his name to make it easier for me to write the story. Let's just call him "jumong" since they look alike. That's how good looking he is.) I can say that he loved me too. I felt it. We were both victims of "right love at the wrong time". Time flies when we're together and as much as we would like to spend a lot of time together, we can't. I saddens me that I cannot introduce him as my special someone because he's not really mine in the first place. He's married and ought to be a father so whenever I'm alone, guilt always strikes me.

Months passed and our relationship grew deeper and deeper. I felt so loved and special and I was at my happiest because finally, I found a guy who loves me unconditionally. He even said that he's willing to leave her wife, son and religion just to be with me. That was when I realized that what we have is wrong because a son is about to lose a father and a wife is about to lose a husband. Because of me.

I loved him so much and even if it kills me, I decided to stay away and do the right thing. We have to end what we have even if it hurts like hell. I know he's not mine and he will never be that's why I decided to be in the right path. I guess it was also God's will because his wife found out. She bombarded me with harassing text messages and called me a home wrecker and honestly, I can't blame her. She threatened to get me fired from work since my then-supervisor is her best friend. As expected, my job was affected and I almost lost my friends because they were defending me only to find out that what they learned to believe was just a lie. I knew then that I couldn't handle the situation alone. I decided to tell my parents. Letting them know was the hardest because they trusted me too much and  thought I was smart enough to never let myself in that kind of situation. I guess blood is really thicker than water because they stood by me all through the way. We even came to a point where we had everything settled (My parents, Jumong's parents and the legal wife's parents). I had to take all the insult and painful words because it was my fault in the first place. I should have avoided in right from the start but I didn't. So if that was the price that I have to pay, bring it on.

I decided to quit my job and move on. I moved in Manila even if I was clueless about what kind of life I'm gonna be having now that I'm away from my family. Fortunately, I found a job but I had no place to stay yet that's why I decided to go home everyday. There were mornings that I'm seeing him at the bus station, looking for me. How he found out? I have no idea. There were also nights that I'm seeing him in front of our subdivision, waiting for me. But of course, I chose not to talk to him, even if all I wanted to do was put my arms around him. Last thing I heard, he's still trying to get in touch with me (through a friend) but I opted not to give any of my contact information. I have moved on and he should also do the same. 8 years have passed and I have learned a lot from my experience. There are times that I still think of him and our memories still make me smile. He changed my life and he made me a strong person. I am now happy with my life, my baby and my partner. There are times that we're having problems since he's away but I'm glad because we still make our relationship work; for our love and for our daughter. 

My New Year's Resolution

It is another year for me; I can say that I'm a year older and wiser. However, this year is different. I don't know if this year has been the happiest or saddest birthday that I ever had. I think it would be more appropriate to say that it's a combination of both. Why new year's resolution though? My birthday made me realize that I have a lot of excess baggage that I should let go. And since this is a new year for me, today marks the day that I'm finally letting go of the these people who cause me pain especially during the supposedly SPECIAL days of my life. It's time for me to choose to be happy. Selfish? I don't really care.

IF YOU CAN"T TREAT ME RIGHT, GET OUT OF MY LIFE! 

Sure. All of us got issues that we need to deal with but we need to understand that there are some who are affected by each of our actions. Taking a person who cares about you deeply for granted is a big no-no! As I've written in my previous post, I got fed up being ignored and so, I decided to gradually kill my feelings for this person. I am going through a lot of tough times right now and the fact that I can't rely on him is way too much to bear. The least thing I would need now is a burden. I need someone who will change my life,  not just  my relationship status in Facebook.

He may have changed my life since I'm a mom now... I'd be forever thankful. I thought he was the one but he just wasn't and probably never will. Dreams for us? Yeah right... He can go ahead and keep those dreams to himself. Just like how he keeps things to himself too. I'm tired and I'm done with all this sh!t.. This could be the hardest decision in my life but my daughter and I will get by.

GOODBYE NEGATIVE VIBES!

Starting today, I am choosing to be happy. This means that I'll stay away from those who cause me pain and disappointment that I certainly do not deserve. I'll start to regain my self esteem and be a better and happy person. I'll focus more on my baby. Goodbye negativity!

Update: May 24, 2012

Surprisingly, I did a very good job in saying goodbye to negativity. How? I just mastered the art of DEADMA and it worked.  Everything started to fall in the right place. Communication is the key. Also, try not to think too much and loosen up a bit. It might work for you too. Focus on the positive side of things instead of dwelling with the down side. On my birthday, I chose to be happy, and I am now.

Where Is Daddy?

I woke up the other day and just like what a person addicted to Facebook would do, I checked my account to see if I have new messages or comments etcetera.  As expected there was a new comment on one of my pictures (portrait of me with my sleeping baby) which says "Where is DADDY?" my initial reaction was anger because obviously, the person who commented was trying to imply something. Whatever that is, I am certain that it's something too personal and quite offensive. I tried to conceal my annoyance and jokingly answered "Somewhere out there. lol" for I feel that I'm not required to disclose information about my personal life in Facebook,  not to mention that this person knows nothing about me. I was deeply offended and I immediately deleted him on my friends list when he answered "Never joke about the daddy! She needs HIM while GROWING!" The nerve.

Image courtesy of Wallcoo.net

After a few hours of contemplating while getting my daily dose of Tom and Jerry (courtesy of Cartoon Network), I have realized that the guy has a point. My daughter needs a dad. I am a semi-single mom since I'm raising my child alone since her dad works overseas. "Semi" because I'm not officially a single mother. Yet. I suck in dealing with LDR (Long Distance Relationship) and God knows how many times I considered breaking up with my boyfriend because I'm kind of getting used to the feeling that he's not here with me. I am responsible with everything as far as my daughter is concerned. Literally. For now, it seems like her dad's task is just to "like" or post comments on Facebook. That's it. I do not mean to whine but I'm just a human being who gets tired too especially when I'm taken for granted. It's tiring to deal with someone with no initiative, no moral support and all. I have confided my situation to a friend and she made me realize that It's somehow my fault because I'm not helping him at all to be responsible because I'm showing him that It's totally fine with me even If I'm technically handling EVERYTHING. 

Just recently, I have stopped communicating with him, hoping that with my absence, he will see my worth. I just got fed up being ignored. I am not perfect and I know I have shortcomings too but I DON'T DESERVE TO BE TREATED THIS WAY. I hope I'm not being selfish for choosing to love my self a little bit more. I hope one day, he'll realize that there's someone who will call him "daddy" a few years from now and when that time comes, I hope he has learned to be responsible. 

I am not wishing for a good husband at this moment. I am praying hard for my daughter to have the best dad. 

Whitney Houston meets Michael Jackson in heaven!

Hilarious video! It made me laugh so hard and it took all my negative vibes away.This video reminds me how much I miss Michael Jackson, his legend and his music.

What if?

What if I'm single again? Will I be able to handle it? Maybe yes, maybe no... It'll be a lot easier if it's just me whom I have to consider. But no, I have my little one now. Arggggh, I think I really need a drink. It's so hard to be happy for the past months. I don't know why. Maybe because he's away? I'm starting to get tired of this situation. Long distance relationship sucks! I don't think I can take this any longer. I want to be out of this relationship but I don't know what and how to tell him.

Relationships have ups and downs... but I think ours has been on its downside for how many months now (At least for me). He just won't admit it or he might not be aware that I'm feeling this way. I don't wanna get married anymore. I just woke up one day realizing that I'm not so sure about getting married. I know I'll pass the motherhood test but I'm not sure if I'm gonna be a good wife if we continue this despite of what I'm currently feeling. I don't wanna get married for the wrong reasons; it will never work out.

Don't get me wrong... I love the guy. I really do. I'm just not sure about getting married. Maybe because I got used to the fact that he's not with me. I'm dying to be with him but I'm scared. Even I can't explain what kind of feeling is this. I hope one day, I'll be back to my old self. I hope that the old Honey who loved him so much will be back ASAP. I wish I could talk to him about this but I don't know what to say either so, what's the point? Maybe I'll just sleep it off. things will be better tomorrow I hope. 

One Fine Day With My Quality Family

It's Sunday and I had a blast with my second family. It's been years since we last went out. It feels great to take a break and spend time with good friends after an exhausting week. It's fun to remember and talk about the crazy things we used to do back in Sutherland. We didn't realize that we spent nearly 6 hours reminiscing.

• Start and end of the week meeting that we never took seriously because we were just chatting
• Dress-to-impress every Monday
• Hiding from our bosses because Chicha and I are wearing "palengke outfit"
• Reports! Which reminds me how I miss playing with MS Excel
• Corporate Complaints (the most sensitive report I handled for the longest time) No room for mistakes.
• Weekly audits that Chicha and I start doing every Friday. It still makes me laugh whenever I remember how our fingers literally turned purple due to 30-40 audits done in one sitting
• Galamus moments courtesy of CJ and Pete
• Certification booboos! 
• Double shift
• Calibration sessions with Joe
• Drinking session
• Endless coffee breaks
• Usapang Kasamaan haha!
• Spooky moments during our stay at Cityland
• Family days every Sunday (movie, coffee, food trip and shopping!)

Too many to mention. I miss working and I miss them. I miss Sutherland (haha) and I miss my Quality team. We'll be having a drinking session next Sunday and I just can't wait to spend another time with them. 

HOW I MADE A LIVING ONLINE

Just when I was about to give up in having extra income while staying at home, I came across with this amazing site. JustBeenPaid was introduced to me by a friend and I am so thankful that I took the risk and tried the program out. There's nothing to lose anyway since registration is free and the program has the "PAY IT FORWARD" feature that lends $10 to newly signed-up members so they can see how it works and prove that the earnings grow every day without doing anything. 

Image courtesy of Demond Johnson

I was skeptic at first (who would believe that you can earn without doing anything in the first place?) but when I registered and observed the system for a couple of days, I decided to use some of my spare money and  purchased 15 more triplers. I was so psyched to see my earnings grow every day and I realized that purchasing triplers can be so addicting.

I am sharing  this information not because I want to promote the site, but just in case you want to try it out and start earning passively, I have provided the link where you can register for free. This would be ideal for stay at home moms like me, students, regular employees and lazy people *wink* who wants to literally earn while sleeping. It’s beyond ideal actually; like in my case, JustBeenPaid gave me the opportunity to have the best of both worlds. Watch my daily earnings and baby grow at the same time. 

How Does JBP Work?

1.  Sign up and be a member.

Have your account verified (via email) to complete the registration.

NOTE: Check your SPAM MAILS just in case the email isn't appearing in your Inbox.

2. Set up an account with AlertPay (take the Personal Pro and have your credit/debit card linked on your account), Solit Trust Pay or Liberty Reserve. You can manage your payment processors by clicking the "Profile tab" in JBP back office.

3. Buy at least 1 Tripler position to start earning 2% during weekdays and 1.5% during weekend for 80 days.

(This is the perfect time for new members to take advantage of the $10 loan. This would be helpful to those who want to try the program out without having to shed a single cent. Be informed though that the same amount will be debited after 45 days. The Pay-It-Forward feature was used as a marketing tool to have the site introduced to all)

* Once your JBP account gets verified, log back in and click "JSS Tripler" which can be found in the blue box. Enter the member area and take advantage of the $10 loan.*

The more positions you purchase, the more daily earnings you get. Please see the examples below:

5 positions worth 50 USD x 2% = 1 dollar DAILY earning

10 positions worth 100 USD x 2% = 2 dollars DAILY earning

20 positions worth 200 USD x 2% = 4 dollars DAILY earning

50 positions worth 500 USD x 2% = 10 dollars DAILY earning

100 positions worth 1000 USD x 2% = 20 dollars DAILY earning

200 positions worth 2000 USD x 2% = 40 dollars DAILY earning

JBP Basics:

Each tripler/position costs $10, which will give you $15 after 80 days as each position matures at 150%.

JSS tripler/position pays 2% during weekdays and 1.5% during the weekend.

Get a free JSS Synergy Surf Matrix spot (that gives you $60 rebate when it cycles) for every 4 matured/expired triplers.

IMPORTANT UPDATES:

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Daily Payouts (up to 2%) currently take up to 5 hours to be accomplished, starting at 12:05 CEST.

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We appreciate your patience as we work to enhance and optimize the system.

Just like what the title says, I was able to make a living online. And the best part is, my earnings grow on a daily basis. I'll soon start withdrawing some of my earnings and have them added to my little one's savings account, which I have yet to open as soon as her birth certificate gets released. Thanks to JustBeenPaid.

PAYMENT PROOFS AND IMPORTANT LINKS

True enough, convincing people that you can earn online without being scammed is not an easy task. Words are not enough, so to support my post above, I prepared screen shots of my daily and running total earnings. 

image courtesy of Demond Johnson

My daily earnings as of April 13

Total earnings as of April 13

My first withdrawal

Withdrawals made easy through the AP Debit Card

You wont score if you don't take a shot. The payments posted above all started with questions and doubts. The key in this program is investing only what you can afford to lose. I'm glad I took the risk; I didn't lose anything but gained a lot more. Thanks to JustBeenPaid. 

IMPORTANT LINKS:

You might also want to join us on

Official JBP-JSS Tripler  Philippine Group

JBP International Group

EARNINGS AS OF APRIL 30

Earnings as of May 16

I am now at $53 per day... how awesome is that?

I just got paid! :)

Raising Mischee

It's been months since I gave up my job due to delicate pregnancy. I wasn't ready to quit then, but my little one's health might be at stake if I continue to work and go all the way from San Fernando to Clark every night. It was indeed a tough decision but I was certain that it will all be worth it. 

Being a stay-at-home mom is not an easy task, believe me, there were times that I actually prayed hard to wake up from a nightmare. Taking care of an infant nearly drove me crazy! Being a mom is definitely rewarding, but overwhelming at the same time. Dang, I couldn't even have a decent bath.

image courtesy of http://www.quizazz.com

Things got worse when my daughter started to grow up... Growing up means more diapers, bigger dose of formula milk, new clothes, etcetera. It's not that we didn't prepare for it, It's just that I didn't expect she'd grow up TOO FAST. I couldn't go back to work because looking for a nanny that I can trust is a lot harder than I thought. My hands are tied, I had no choice but to stay home and be a full-time mom. I wasn't sure if staying home was the culprit why I was once (or still?) the queen of paranoia. A lot of things are going in my mind, my daughter's future, how to get my old position back, regain my self esteem, lose weight, earn money, get my old self back and rekindle the good relationship that I used to have with my partner. I just woke up one day, realizing that I am unstable in almost everything. I felt so alone. Yes, I have the most supportive parents in the whole world but I guess, that was the problem. I was trying so hard to prove to them that I can handle what I've gotten myself into. I didn't ask for any financial help though it was my number one challenge. All the uncertainties, pain, anxieties -I kept to myself. I had no one to talk to; not even my partner. I opted not to talk to him because I think we'll just end up fighting. There are some things I assume he wouldn't understand maybe because he didn't see what I had to go through since day 1 of my pregnancy until giving birth of our little Mischa. There were times that I actually considered myself as a single mother; because that's what I am feeling and technically, I am raising our daughter alone. Like literally alone since he's away. I couldn't do anything but pray and cry almost every night while watching my daughter sleep. There wasn't a single day that I didn't ask for guidance, strength and more patience.

I can say that I am now coping, adjusting, whatever you call it. It all started with acceptance. I guess I had a hard time accepting that I am no longer the old Honey who does what she wants, goes where wants to go without having to worry about anything. It took me a while to embrace the fact that its just not myself, who I have to consider because I already have a child who needs me. I didn't realize how being a mom could change one's life. Everything will change. I have learned to be selfless. 

Mischa on her 2nd Month

Things are getting better as the months pass by. I have also found an alternate source of income while I'm taking care of my little one. I can say that I am now somehow back to my old self. I guess I was able to pass the first stage of being a mom. ADJUSTMENT. All I know is that, I am the happiest whenever I see Mischa smile though of course, there are times that I want to throw her out of the window especially when she cries just to bug me when I'm busy. Sigh. This is just the beginning. 

Lessons learned:

• Giving up is never an option when you have someone who will call you "mom" in a couple of years or so.
• I have given up so much of what made me who I am, but I made a choice and even if it's harder than I thought, I should never regret it. I don't and will never regret it.
• Patience is a must

Now that my partner is coming home soon, I have yet to pass another test... I am certain that I'm gonna the best mom for my daughter. Now here lies the question... Will I be a good wife?

What do you think?

Missing The Big Ocean

Words are not enough to describe how much I miss my old life. Having a baby changed the whole "me" and I was not told how much I have to give up. Travelling is obviously one of the things that I have to put on hold in a few years or so. Sigh, It's summer and I'm home... I guess I'm just not used to it. I miss getting a tan line, I miss setting my feet in the sand and of course, I miss the big ocean!

For now, what I can do is to make myself feel better is to reminisce (haha!) and share some of the amazing (at least for me) scenery captured by my "photographic eye".

One of the nature's wonders. I never seen a cloud like this back in the city. 

Who wouldn't fall in love with this place?

Perfect for a drinking session either with your date or friends.  Mindoro Sling is a must-try.

About to be home in a few hours. This photo was actually featured in Project  7107

Cozy, isn't it?  

Another good scenery

Getting ready to be sun-kissed

Can you imagine how fresh the air is?

I can't wait for my baby girl to grow up so I can travel again and when that time comes, I'll have my little one to tag along with me. I can't wait.

Hunny Santos' photostream

Hunny Santos' photostream on Flickr.